Quiet

I've been feeling quiet. I'm not sure why, maybe it's being ready for a change of season. We keep getting glimpses of spring, it rained all weekend. But the weather can't seem to make up its mind and we've received snow and frigid temperatures again. I know spring will arrive eventually, I'm just so ready for it!

I've also been feeling restless about "home". For so many years we have been dreaming about where our permanent home would be, we knew it wasn't back East but I'm unsure that it is here. Don't get me wrong, there is so much I really like here! Yet, when we look at homes for sale I can't help but be disappointed. The yards are so teeny tiny and to get any space we would have to be too far away from work.

I just can't shake this yearning to have a little homestead. I want chickens and goats. I want to let the kids run around on our property and not have to worry about busy streets. I want us all to know the joy and also the frustration that comes with providing much of our own food. I will always do my best to fit our dreams into wherever we are living, I'm planning our little urban veggie garden for the front steps. I just can't help but feel that this isn't where we should be. As I'm getting older I really need to know where "home" is.

Ultimately home is where my beautiful little family is....I just wish I knew where it would feel right. I feel as though I am as confused as the weather right now...